About a Month Left
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
10:13 PM
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Listening to: Follow Me -- 2NE1 (thanks Tati for suggesting)
Mood: Tired
Even though I'm exhausted I wanted to update while it is still fresh in my mind.
For those who don't follow me on facebook, I had a dream that I was moving into my dorm, Raymond last night. I must me really excited to go back to school as I feel if I had even dreamed the situation. I've been talking to one of my new roommate's online, Aubrey, she seems really nice and open minded. I think I can get along with her despite her being in a sorority (I normally don't get along with people who are apart of one I've learned). I still haven't heard from my other roommate, Sharlot, so I'm a little nervous about meeting her.
My brother starts high school in two weeks, and I start school in roughly about a month since the official date is Aug. 30th, and move in is the 26th. My brother wishes there was still more summer while I wish it was over. See the irony?
As for work I've really been stepping it up. Tomorrow I actually get to open and close despite tomorrow was suppose to be my day off. Thanks to being suckered into this and my dad's changing plans on dinner I wasn't able to talk to Tati on IM at all tonight which I feel guilty about because I told her we would spend most of the night doing so. I don't really have a choice though. Holly (my boss and dad's girlfriend) came into the restaurant and basically it went like this;
Holly: "So tonight I'll be getting the movie Blind Sight for us to watch."
Wait, what? Us?
Holly: "And Deb is going to teach you to close down the place so you can to it tomorrow. You'll be clocking in for Deb so on your card just write on the side, 'Working for Deb.' That means you're opening as well. Okay?"
"Yes." Mind registers the two sentences. WHAT? Not like I could say no anyways, and seeing Deb, well, I feel like she needs a day off. She's 55 years old and basically runs the place instead of Holly which I feel is probably like hair-pulling stress with the family fight going on with the Berrys (Holly, my dad's bosses, and his ex boss).
And about the Dad changing plans. He had suggested earlier on the week that we should have a family dinner somewhere. Well, obviously that changed after Holly told me we were going to be at her place tonight instead of going out. i don't really care but like I said, these two things ruined my plans with Tatiana.
And not to sound like I'm complaining, but why am I opening and closing? I'm one of the most inexperienced out of everyone and I'm chosen to do this? Wouldn't you want someone with more experience to do this important job? And basically I was left in charge tomorrow which I really think it's unfair. Heather, who I work with the most, should be the one doing it I feel. She's been around longer and it just seems more logical but, I guess I should be happy that I'm all ready considered to be trusted enough to be left with such a responsibility.
And on a finally note, my pokewalker (from Pokemon SoulSilver) currently has my recently caught Vulpix, Ember. Basically the pokewalker counts how many steps you take and you can take those steps to do fun things on the walker, and level up the pokemon. I tried it out today with Ren, my Wooper, at work and I got a total of...
... 7441 steps from 10:00 - 3:00. I'll say that I was shocked. Tomorrow I wanna see how much I'll get for starting at 9:00 in the morning.
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Sometimes
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
11:51 PM
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Listening to: Black Horse and the Cherry Tree -- KT Tunstall Mood: Depressed I've had a friend tell me that she envied me, saying the few things she admired and one of them was being strong. Not caring what people thought of me, standing where I believe is right and sticking with it, and knowing who I am. But she doesn't know how wrong she is.
I may act like it, but I'm not very strong at all. I falter a lot, I'm weak by myself, I think to much, and sometimes I don't know who I am. Sometimes I wonder what I'm even doing. Everyday seems to have no purpose. What is my purpose? Why am I even alive? Does it matter that I'm alive?
If somebody was born to help someone with this ever lasting impression to create this circle of support, then who was born to help me? Don't get me wrong, I have wonderful friends who I will forever keep close to my heart but is this the same thing?
I'm sorry, I'm being really selfish right now.
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The Days Seem Endless.
5:13 PM
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Listening to: Finally -- Brave Brothers feat. Kevin & Alexander (U-Kiss) Mood: Indifferent I promised myself (and to Tati) to try and not complain so much but a blog is a good place to let everything out.
I've started training as a waitress at a small restaurant known as Cherry Springs that does lunch, and scheduled formal dinners. I started to wait tables yesterday, and to be honest it's a bit harder than what people expect. There's so much to remember; how to write the orders on the ticket especially when with complicated orders, make sure that they have everything they need, get their food out (especially with a big order) without mixing everything up such as the sides but before I bring the food out I have to make sure that everything is right before it leaves the swinging doors, remember to check up on them after about eight minutes, make sure their drinks are always filled, asking again if there's anything they want, if they are done eating to take the plate away, ask if they want desert or want a to-go drink. (・∀・)
I made a lot of mistakes which makes me realize how much I still need to learn and make sure I'm doing things right. Like not leave the menus on the table after the order, and stumble over my words. (>_<;)
Another problem I really have is that I'm to shy and quiet. Michelle, one of the women that were shadowing me, said so herself that I needed to speak up. But she did in a kind way that I feel like I really need to do my best tomorrow when I work again which is my last training day. I'm a bit nervous, I probably won't sleep well tonight.
Since I've started working I've gotten five to six hours when I work, and my days go by so much faster than what they have been during these summer days. Today was my day off and it's been going by so slowly that it's driving me insane. I had woken up around noon too since I stayed up 'till five am with Tatiana. I'm so glad that I have Tati at nights to make them go faster, and it's my only time with her.
But with the day going by so slowly I realize I don't have anything to do. I ended up cleaning the house a bit before I was left with nothing to do again. I just wish I was back at school, I can do something during my days like classes, hanging out with friends, something.
I still have nearly two months left before school starts again, I have my two weeks to get ready to move back and to buy all the things that I need for the dorm. ...Let the days go by faster please!
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