It's not a date. It's not a date. It's not a date. It's not a date. It's not a date. It's not a date. It's not a date. It's not a date. It's not a date. It's not a date. It's not a date. It's not a date. It's not a date. It's not a date. It's not a date. It's not a date!

I just happen to be going to dinner to a Japanese Chinese place with a guy. That's it.

EDIT -- 8:25 PM
Apparently it turned into a date half way through the hang out. Both sushi bar were closed for some off reason so we went to a nice Chinese place next door to one of the sushi bar. It was a really good dinner, though it was kinda of awkward since we didn't really know each other. There were a lot of awkward silences.

After dinner, he suggested going to the park and I thought nothing of it. I agreed. It was a park right by the apartments my mother, Jeremy and I (temporarily) live. Half way through the walk he just grabbed my hand.

... note the grabbed and not ask to hold. It was extremely uncomfortable. Two reasons: 1) I barely met the guy; I think I've known him for like an hour. 2) I've never held hand with anyone before. Really uncomfortable.

But being the accursed nice person I am, I didn't say anything. I think I was in shock as well. Oh, but that's not all. He asked if I wanted to sit down in the grass, and again being the naive nice person I am and being distracted with the whole holding hand thing, I agreed. So when we sat down he put his arm around me.

This may not seem like it but he was going way to fast for me to really handle. If I was uncomfortable now, I was even more now with his arm around me. And mentally I was starting to freak out. Eventually I managed to get out "Do you mind if you can take me back?" This may sound mean, but honestly I don't think I've ever been so relieved to get away from someone before.

He was nice despite the awkward things he did, but I don't want to be alone with him again. But another thing, even after this happened like two hours ago now I still feel uncomfortable and on the borderline of being scared. Tati says it's because it's the first time anything like that has happened to me, and I don't like the guy. I don't like this feeling...

I should have said something but I don't know what to say. I mean there's plenty of stuff to say but when I'm put into that situation nothing comes out. I literally mean nothing, I'll open my mouth and nothing will come out. Ugh, I'm going to be so doomed at college. *cries*