I'm finally back home, well, close to enough of home. I'm staying at Katie's house for the next month and a half.

But I guess I'm falling back into this depression I guess you can call it, so here are my rants. That feel of having someone there for you. I mean, a lot of my friends up at NAU (mainly the STAR Program) told me don't get a boyfriend, it's just to much drama. But it's hard not to want one. Especially now.

Katie has a boyfriend, a really good one this time. He honestly treats right, and it's someone whose really good for her. But even just a few minutes ago she was cuddled up with him looking really happy. She texts him every night, giggles every time she thinks of him. I'm so happy for her, but at the same time I really want what she has.

I think out of all my friends I haven't had a boyfriend (Breezy hasn't but she has had her first kiss at least.). It drives me nuts because I'm waiting for that one person who'll accept me for me but I've been waiting so long... Sometimes I wonder if waiting is really worth it.

And it really annoys me when all my girlfriends tell me how "cute" I am, or how "pretty" I am... it doesn't feel like. Not at all. If I so cute or so pretty then why haven't I found this person.