It's been almost three weeks since I've seen any of my close friends, and I was hoping that this weekend we could all meet up at Sedona to go and have fun at Slide Rock. Especially since I've been over loaded with homework that I haven't really had anytime to go out and have fun like that. But Kaitlyn & Andrea can't go cause they have this church concert that they're going to and Kay is working. Martika doesn't have anything going on but she won't drive done to Flagstaff just to see me.

I've been feeling really left out these few weeks. I get pictures of what everone's doing and I'm not there with them. No one calls, or sends any text. I have to start the conversation. And Kay hasn't been calling like she has. She promises to call and then she doesn't.

It hurts. A lot. I feel like I've just been severed from my friends and that they don't care. I know some of them miss me, but it doesn't feel like it. It's not like I'm not having fun at NAU, and I'm meeting new people, but that's the thing. Everything's new. I don't have the friends that I know and love with all my heart with me. And the fact that they aren't really trying bothers me.

I just don't know what to do. For now, I'll just try and finish up my homework while listening to An Cafe. I can all ready feel a bit better by listening to their songs, but only just a bit.